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Saturday, November 16, 2013
*coughs* looks like a lot of virtual cobwebs here!
It's been almost a year since I last visited this place, which have been very much neglected. Nothing new. Looks like I will try to revive this place and start blogging again. Well as you know blogging has become quite a lucrative business for many, and hmm just toying of the idea to do just that.
Such a nostalgic place.. You know the feeling you get when you dig out items from your attic and the memories just starts flooding back. So much has changed, and I'm not no more sexy seventeen but serious boring 24. *yelps*
Now..time to do some exploration....
9:32 AM
Friday, June 15, 2012
so you thought it was but it was not.
so you thought there were more out there, more inside of you that you could just solely rely on. you strive, you seek, you took off chucking aside, challenging all that you've hoped and believed in, thinking that success was attainable by your own abilities. You are probably now still seeking, but as much you know you could attain the success you want, you forgo the trueness and goodness of what was taught since you were small. The little steps of faith that protected you, that kept that hopeful happy spark in you burning, has been challenged and put out in the midst of it all. Before you know it, success was what you already held on to since young. To trust, to hope, to love, and to change the world, make it a happy place. But you exchanged it for what you thought was good, better, a place much greener. Now you have a void that you cant fill, it makes you frustrated, confused and displaced. But you know that its never too late to come back, to reconcile with goodness again. Just like starting up a fire, you have to assemble the charcoal again, watchfully and carefully fan up that fire you once had.
Coming back. trying.
10:03 AM
Thursday, May 10, 2012
13 hrs apart
distance makes the heart grow fonder
as the saying goes
but how much truth does it hold?
that i leave it to time to unfold
distance drifts two hearts apart
maybe so,
my heart thinks
I find it hard to have my heart synced
i love you i love you
but how long can i say that
with wamth and truth
i dont know,
but it may turn cold.
9:26 AM
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Lately, I have been contemplating on what I was designed for.. and after the very long search of what really made me tick, what really brings out the passion and talents that was bestowed to me from above.. i would say that i very much reached a conclusion.
I always deny it, but really, as silly as it may sound, i really love handicrafts.
I love creating things out of paper, and now i am experimenting a little on accessories and the thread and needle. :P
Sometimes i wonder what kind of jobs i can take on that well, make me happy. I;ve thought of being a florist, but isnt that wayyy wayyy too unambitious at all? esp for a young (well not so, but generally yes) lady like me, when opportunities are vast?
Well, I sure am not fully confident of my "crafty'" (pun unintended) abilities.. but i must start somewhere righttt....? (: I hope next time, I can be like this lady. Set up my handicraft and events company ... ((:
http://www.ashleymeaders.com/
anyway, heres something i made cos my fingers were feeling all itchy..
Hmm well its a start.. i think its a little too tacky.. lets wait for the next wave of inspiration. :/
End.
9:08 AM
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Howdy howdy ho! Surprise surprise!
I thought i dropped this old nest a visit, and it sure feels good. It feels weird to be writing again, and like an un-oiled engine, my thoughts fail to express itself finely in print as it used to before. :(
Some significant changes in my life, of that would of course be what i would dubbed "merging of hearts". Ha, yes corny, but my happy heart has con-joined itself to another happy heart. Being in love for the first time, is like what a friend once told me- an awakening. An awakening to beauty, to the revelation of how deep love can make it's way to areas of your heart you never knew existed. And along with that, the power it has to cripple and strengthen, to uplift and destroy.
Relationships itself are something i do not toy with, and thus my track record of holding my single status for 21 years. My decision to put an end to this came at a very unexpected bend of events that transpired out from a silly social night event. (I am sure some of you have known about it, as it was raging news on facebook) Infatuation (i wont say it's love) finds you when you very least expect it, well at least for me.
Sometimes I find myself to be very paranoid, always evaluating even after making the decision. I dont know how many of you do that, but it's very annoying for yourself and perhaps very unfair for your partner. It is just like how you are going shopping for a pair of shoes with only a limited amount of $$. You can only purchase one, and once the decision is made, chances of you turning back is nearly impossible. I always slip into this realm where these thought dance around... and my whole head starts to spiral into a pit of uncertainty..
Girls, can never make up their minds... choosing between shoes can be difficult, this unhealthy behaviour pattern can be applied to boys as well. or maybe it's just me . haha!
An acquaintance once told me this, in life it is very difficult to find someone that loves you and that you can love back. And I guess that woke me up, that I should be appreciative of what I have. Isnt it human nature to think of wanting "more" and ensuring to get the "best" out of everything? One thing I have learnt, never use the head for what is meant for the heart. When it comes to matters of the heart, leave it to the heart and let it take lead. (:
Love rules with no rules
and with this, my little surprise post ends here.
<3
7:56 AM
Monday, November 15, 2010
Tell me, do we learn from other people's mistakes or from our own mistakes?
It's mind boggling for me. Sometimes we want to learn from other people's mistakes, but with that we then do not give what we want a shot/ a try. We tend to take less chances and play safe most of the time.
So what now?
Maybe what we can do is to hope for the best, prepare for the worst. Take that leap. Live life with no regrets, regardless the outcome.
& lastly: denial, a friend or foe?
10:07 AM
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Nice to be back in this cosy comfy space. *adjusts butt*
I do not want to render this blog useless, so here's a little update.
So much has happened since my last post here. So many thoughts have scrambled through my mind and my emotions, suffice to say, followed suit.
I really do not have a particular something that i wish to pen down, but i will just pluck whatever thoughts that are floating around in my head, and somewhat expand on it.
As much as i would like to say that i have a mind of my own, i daresay, not really. I mean, there are certain areas i stand strongly upon, but there are some which i am still faltering by. I believe that every thing happens for a reason, whether you see it or not, there is a purpose behind every situation we encounter. Some situations may not bring out anything "productive" or "beneficial" but with the right eye, and attitude we can sieve out the good of a problem. The good could be a discovering of ourselves, what we need to change or a revealing of our likes/dislikes or it could shed some light to what life should be and how it should be lived.
I am very thankful that God has placed me in situations that tossed my feelings and thoughts rigorously like in a salad bowl. I find myself to be like a fresh ceasar salad thereafter; my view on life has taken a new perspective and I feel alot happier and wiser.
You know it is very easy for us to heed other people's advice at the expanse of our happiness. I realize that many of us (me included) make decisions that would make us feel secure rather than truly happy. True isnt it? I mean really, do ask yourself. It does take a certain amount of boldness to believe and fight for what you really want despite the daunting/unfavorable circumstances that stands in our way. It takes faith and guts. But well, Ive come to a conclusion.. life is a journey, it's all about experiencing and making mistakes. I mean, sometimes we are so afraid of making mistakes we fail to realise that failure is life's greatest teacher. failure makes us better. failure adds value to our character.
Life is a long journey, and it will be boring if we stuck to the straight path. You'll never know what you will find if u just steer into the woods... hmm maybe spot bambi or some hot chick like pocahontas or crazy dancing couples like tarazan and jane. ha.
Live life with no regrets. Just do what makes you happy.
Cos when u are happy, other people will be happy! Happiness is infectious!
Think i am done. I know my thoughts are not as coherent as i hope it would be, but well, my blog my rules ! ;p
i hope you shine brighter as i come closer.
10:12 AM
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