beach-read
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Have you ever woke up one morning and felt a lightness in your spirit? As if everything was going to be dandy as candy? Everything around you seems to be smiling at you. The sun, the wind, the swaying trees. There was a strange happy feeling when i the sun ray broke the darkness of the dawn.
Sometimes one have to hit rock bottom before the existence of God comes into play. Its just, astounding/ gees, i'm at a loss for vocab here, cos, the past few days was very outer-space-ish for me.
For instance, Spa test- was a miracle, finding a cobbler at AMK was a miracle and today, meeting up with the day was strangely blithe for me. I want everyday to be like that, and i guess,the only way to that, is to be true to God and to myself. (well, maybe?)
Right now, i am just looking for answers on why things turn out the way they did. Why certain feelings come about in such a way. Why people feel the way they feel. You can say its taking a step back from everything and looking at life through a glass globe. You wonder why you smile, you wonder why you cry, you wonder why your anger, you wonder why you forgive.
I would think i had all the answers last time, but the more you think you have, you actually don't. Something inside of me, is just craving for answers.. and i want at least a conclusion to everything. I want to learn something, but somehow the answers, both right and wrong, seem to be covalent bonded together, that it becomes hard to differentiate.sigh. Then again, am i just thinking too much?
Well humans are very much known for that, aint it?
dark clouds be blown away
God's grace is here to stay
my current mood: Perplex
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY AARON.
We love you.
12:35 AM
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