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Tuesday, May 5, 2009
You may attribute my current mood to post menstrual syndrome or just plain emoficiation eating its way into my head, cos I'm suddenly feeling very lost in this huge planet called earth. It;s just a sudden realisation or thought of your (not very proud of) standing in life that scares the wits outta ya. And scares you even more, when you know you barely (or not at all)have plans for the future. I can remember how i used to be very optimistic about those big dreams i could achieve the moment the graduation cap sits on my head. A creative arts business to call my own, a design artsy fartsy job to take on, my very own talk show...and the list goes on. Then when i look at where I am and what I am doing, seems like my life is on standstill. Dont get me wrong, I am not regretting my decision for enrolling into bible school, but more of the job that I am in now. Wish i could do something that taps more into my potential, or maybe i am just being cruel by condemning myself for not putting my best foot forward in my job. Or it could be that now ,since less is required of me, I feel weird cos gradcom took alot of me. Yeah that could be so. :/

After all those rabblings, i have come to a conclusion. Every great thing started off small. A mustard tree, started off with the smallest seed(: whatever happens... GOD IS GOOD (: And that should be the reason to rejoice! :D

All i wanna hear ,ultimately is :"Well done good and faithful servant;you were good and faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things.."

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