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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Ariel, please blogging at this very unearthly hour is just gonna cause your eyes to be more panda-like. oh like i care at this very moment. (sry for being so schnitzel here)
Its 2am and all is quiet, i start to think and reflect once again...
I realised that i am somehow moved when people give me gifts. These past few days i have been receiving gifts from all over. And i must say, for the first year ever, i have never been so happy with my gifts before. Never BEEN SO HAPPY. really.
Just recently, some of my cel group members gathered together to get me a pair of adidas sports shoes, which was so totally unexpected at such a timely moment. Hey, I have been running with a pair of worn and torn shoes, which has been haphazardly repaired with a red chicken rice rubber band that hold the soles together. yeah, how pathetic. I was seriously touched to the core of my heart! awww! seriously, using words to describe will do great injustice to my real feelings right now. haha. Of course and also the awfully sweet cute rainbow mouse that i received from my colleagues. Ahh, cant take it, just too happy with the gifts.
I have always thought that gifts will never pacify me, or make me feel loved cos they are perishable. I know that quality time and words were the love languages that i spoke and choose to receive, however, not so now... :( I think my love language have shifted somehow to more of gift giving which is totally very strange. Is this a symptom of materialism? gosh :/ what has society done to me!
Sometimes i am just so afraid that i will fall prey to materialism. I know how many people tell me that the moment you go out there and work, you will start to become very materialistic. And i really do shudder at that statement. I dont wanna be like that! I want to continue shopping at bugis street and china town! i dont want to have a list of GOODS that i have to buy after i get my pay. i want to be happy, simple. I mean, as of late, i do not have a shopping list on what to splurge, save or spend on. So thats a good sign. :)
Anyway, the year end is coming, so is christmas and i dont feel a least bit christmas-y at all, seriously. Strange, but true. I must learn to take things slow. I think this year God has been teaching me to take things slow. To know that it is okay to rest and enjoy life and the friendships i have. It is difficult, but i am getting there, i know (:
I have been too impatient for too long,
time to take a breather and live , love , laugh ((:
well, this post isnt too emo eh! Thats good!
So proud of my happy self ((:
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