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Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Howdy howdy ho! Surprise surprise!
I thought i dropped this old nest a visit, and it sure feels good. It feels weird to be writing again, and like an un-oiled engine, my thoughts fail to express itself finely in print as it used to before. :(
Some significant changes in my life, of that would of course be what i would dubbed "merging of hearts". Ha, yes corny, but my happy heart has con-joined itself to another happy heart. Being in love for the first time, is like what a friend once told me- an awakening. An awakening to beauty, to the revelation of how deep love can make it's way to areas of your heart you never knew existed. And along with that, the power it has to cripple and strengthen, to uplift and destroy.
Relationships itself are something i do not toy with, and thus my track record of holding my single status for 21 years. My decision to put an end to this came at a very unexpected bend of events that transpired out from a silly social night event. (I am sure some of you have known about it, as it was raging news on facebook) Infatuation (i wont say it's love) finds you when you very least expect it, well at least for me.
Sometimes I find myself to be very paranoid, always evaluating even after making the decision. I dont know how many of you do that, but it's very annoying for yourself and perhaps very unfair for your partner. It is just like how you are going shopping for a pair of shoes with only a limited amount of $$. You can only purchase one, and once the decision is made, chances of you turning back is nearly impossible. I always slip into this realm where these thought dance around... and my whole head starts to spiral into a pit of uncertainty..
Girls, can never make up their minds... choosing between shoes can be difficult, this unhealthy behaviour pattern can be applied to boys as well. or maybe it's just me . haha!
An acquaintance once told me this, in life it is very difficult to find someone that loves you and that you can love back. And I guess that woke me up, that I should be appreciative of what I have. Isnt it human nature to think of wanting "more" and ensuring to get the "best" out of everything? One thing I have learnt, never use the head for what is meant for the heart. When it comes to matters of the heart, leave it to the heart and let it take lead. (:
Love rules with no rules
and with this, my little surprise post ends here.
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